aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
if my heart had a cry, it would sound like that – only magnified times a thousand. i can’t really explain what i’m feeling in one or two sentences. i am wrestling right now. i think often times when people throw out terms like “wrestling” or “desert place” it’s so easy to jump to the conclusion that something is wrong in the life of the person doing the wrestling. i really, really just want to see Jesus – that’s all.
see, he’s surfacing all these old hurts and insecurities and dredging up the old to make room for the new – and it’s a beautiful process, painful at times, but mostly just exciting… exciting cos i see and feel him moving in and through me.
but right now all i want is to SEE him!
JESUS! where are you?! show me your face.
this blog doesn’t even make sense to me… i don’t know i’m writing. i just know that my prayers are only coming out as “groans and utterances” lately because i feel as though i’m all prayed out and i just need Holy Spirit to come and possess me – body, mind, spirit and soul. i don’t know what else to say. i just need him, desperately, radically, insanely…
